Goal Reached - WARNING may be triggering

MUAHAHAHAHA how delightful, i reached my goal of 110 pounds even! Even with the outrageous binge i had yesterday! Oh this is vulgar, but yesterday I ate an entire D'giornos pizza with BBQ sauce, half a gallon of Edy's ice cream, an entire Pepperidge Farm fudge cake, two slices of homemade cheesecake pie with chocolate chips, about 15 Tostino's pizza rolls, three big cheese crackers, a vanilla pudding and I STILL managed to bring my weight down to 110! Had I not purged nearly every bit of it back up though I doubt I would have made it to 11o. And my 525 calories burned on the ellipitcal at the gym certainly helped me quite a bit as well I'm sure.

I looked so thin when I sucked it in today. If only the body I have when I suck it in was really what my body looked like when I didn't suck it in. When I reach below 100 I should hopefully barely have to suck in anymore. Personally, I believe I have a weird shaped body. Or weird composition. Something about it is weird. I have decently skinny thighs, arms, neck, shoulders. But my abdomen, not skinny. I don't get why. And for 11o pounds it seems like there's too much fat there. Maybe it's body dysmorphic disorder? I never thought I had it but I suppose I could.

Today is a fasting day. No food. It may be slightly challenging because my mom doesn't work tonight and I can tell by the evily delicious smelling crock pot in the kitchen, she's brewing her famous beef and noodles with cheese. I am always a big eater of that dish. She'll be shocked if I don't eat any. However, two friends and I already had plans to see the Harry Potter movie tonight, so if I schedule things right, I should be able to avoid eating completely and just tell my mom I'll have leftovers later.

Oh and did I mention what I did after I saw I had reached 110? I took the leftover ice cream and melted it with hot water in the sink! It felt so good! I also disposed of the tiny bit of cake I had left too.

Anyways, today I have one other challenge. I must go to the grocery store and purchase all the food on the list my mom gave me. Joy. And this particular grocery store has loads of delicious binge foods. With her credit card it will be hard not to make a few other purchases. Very hard. If I do purchase other foods, it will be for a later binge. I want to try not to binge again until after Warped Tour next week. I want to look so thin that my friends are absolutely jealous. Perhaps I'll post again later. That's all for now.