Farewell mia. I'm done with you. Tonight was my farewell, last binge. From here on out, no more mia, I'm all Ana. Alright, now I'm getting redundent. I suppose if I say the same thing over and over again it will eventually happen. Haha well this is the real thing. Literally. MUAHAHAHAHA I'm so freakin pumped,so ready for this. So ready to ditch mia for life. It's going to be a struggle, but nothing I can't handle. I've had practice at not binging, and after failing, I learned where my mistakes lie. My biggest mistake was not eating anything at all. I think what this did was made me long for mia again even more. So how will i fix it you may ask? Fruit. I will eat. I will eat lots of fruit. LOTS of fruit. Did I mention I'd eat a lot of fruit? Haha so I have a plan. And a short term goal.
Plan: three day fast. It is now Wednesday. I will not eat again until Saturday. And tomorrow being the only real free day I have to dedicate to myself, I will do a saltwater flush to clean out my insides of all the crap I've put in it.
On Saturday I plan to eat. I will eat at three seperate times throughout the day.Six is ideal, but I'm just starting out here. The canned fruit I bought has 60 cal for a half cup. I will have three half cups throughout the day. One when i awake, and I'll space the other two meals about 2.5-3 hours apart. After Saturday I will plan each day as it comes the night before.
Oh dear, I rambled didn't I? Me and Ana, we have a short term weight goal for myself, and that is 110 pounds. Now I'm going to weigh myself here, mind you, I just binged and purged so bear with me if its a heavy weight. Just a moment.... ahh just as i thought, a little heavier than usual. 120 pounds even. Ten pound weight loss goal. I think I can get to 110 in less than two weeks. My ULTIMATE goal, is 15% under the healthy weight for my 5'2 height - 93 pounds. That is the ultimate goal. That's a 27 pound weight loss.
People expect me to always be perfect. So help me god I'm gonna fucking be perfect, because now, I have Ana on my side.
About Me
- MiAna
- I'm everyone's favorite little girl. The athlete. The straight A student. The daughter that never gets in trouble. The shoulder for friends to cry on. But I wear a series of colorful masks that people consistently mistake for my true self. To stay sane (or insane?) I have Ana to console me. Mia is this little pest that won't leave me the hell alone. But I'm getting rid of her slowly but surely. Everyone wants me to be perfect. Well I'm gonna be fucking perfect. Beautiful. Desirous. One to be envied. Just watch.
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